i fucking did it go read my comic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's important to remind myself that what matters is that i managed to make it at all, even for all the flaws i can see in this page, i still did the thing and made it, and that's somethin worth being proud of.
=====i started the process of migrating my digital existence over to linux. i think im like a week or so in? it's been a struggle, less so in some ways, enormously so in others. Its very easy to focus on the things that i hate about it. I hate that my music software is different. I hate that krita is the best option i have for making art. i hate having to start and stop shit to figure out 1) if something is possible to do and 2) find instructions on how to do it and 3) hope it works for me with my hardware and my distro version specifically, instead of just Doing The Thing. I miss clip studio paint so much. I miss that i can't just draw, i have to roll a boulder up a hill to begin the process of seeing if I'll be able to draw.
but i still think that it's worth it. I like how i have control over my computer. I like how it makes me feel like im casting magical spells with the terminal. I like how many people have reached out with their thoughts and encouragement, giving me helpful tips as i fumble and stumble around. i like how i've had moments where i forget that im not on windows.
i had a moment the other day where I felt like, this is magic, what im experiencing. This is what computers are supposed to be like. this is what corporations want to take away from us. using computers is a thoughtful and human thing to do. like it's not perfect, but i dunno. there's something magical happening here and im touching the hem of it.
i wont lie, i want to give up already. very badly. i want to crawl back to the safety of windows, but i know that it's a false safety. win10 end of life is rapidly approaching, and i can't sit around and wait for it. I have to make this work. I hate that. but im determined. I'll find a way to make it work.
i really dont like krita tho.
=====admitting to myself that im getting old by increasing the display scaling on my monitors from 100% to 125%...
=====i dunno. just thinkin about hands uwu. they're cool
=====New Advice:
I found this in my desktop junk folder. I think i was waiting for some drivers to install and i drew it in paint. I dunno! seemed worth sharing.
I’ve been replaying deltarune, in monster mode. I can’t stop thinking about snowgrave. I feel really bad. I just wanted to see what happens but I feel like I’ve made a terrible mistake....
dont do the weird route... you dont need to see what happens. it's not good. i know it's just a game but i still feel like i've done something reprehensible. Dont do it, just look it up on youtube if you really need to see what happens, but also don't do that. it's better if you dont ask what would happen if you were a bad person in deltarune.
=====i've been playing Arx Fatalis recently. it's pretty neat! I was worried it would be too much of like a clunky old PC game, but it's surprisingly modern feeling. I just need to figure out how to get to the fourth level so i can stop some cultists....
I really like the way things interact with one another. there's something special about combining flour and water to make dough, and watching it rise next to a campfire, or using a mortar and pestle to grind up some bones and then finding out you can put it on your sword to make it better. The combat isn't great, but it also doesnt feel like it needs to be anything more than it is? it's serviceable. The voice acting is really bad but in literally the best possible way. I love hearing my guy talk about shit in the most deadpan voice you can imagine, and then a goblin replies in The Most Goblin Voice you can think of. It's truly something special.
My biggest issue is that it's so easy to get lost, but I'm still having a good time and will definitely keep playing around with it. I'd definitely recommend checking it out if it sounds interesting to you!
alternatively you can check out Mandaloregaming's review of the game!
=====horgis....mc borgis.....s
UPDATE TOO
I'm making a freakin Micro Blog. Now i can finally drop and kick socials media like the toilet water it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. if this breaks, dont tell me!!... i dount wanna hearabnout it.